Thursday, April 30, 2009

angin

angin
sungguh aku tak nampak kamu
tapi kamu ada
selalu ada

menyapa aku sehingga mengukir senyuman - nyaman

walaupun adakala kamu menyapa kasar
seperti amaran
hingga semua takut, kecut mengecut dan kecil
itu kan hanya ingatan..

walaupun ada ketika kamu seperti hilang
di masa aku terlalu perlu kamu
tak tentu arah, tak tentu akal
itu kan hanya untuk aku lebih hargai kamu ketika ada...

angin
aku tahu kamu ada.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

hiatus terjawab

ini kawasan perkhemahan

di tepi pantai nan indah tapi panas gila

cuba cari aku kat mana? ekeke..

aktiviti kembara


Saturday, April 25, 2009

NEED vs WANT

from my crazee sista; kak yang.

Interesting quote from the movie "Why did I get married?"

In most cases, especially in relationships, you will only get 80% of whatyou NEED and you will hardly get the other 20% that you WANT in yourrelationship. There is always another person (man or women) that you willmeet and that will offer you the other 20% which is lacking in yourrelationship that you WANT. And believe me, 20% looks really good when youare not getting it at all in your current relationship.

But the problem is that you will always be tempted to leave that good 80%that you know you have, thinking that you will get something better withthe other 20% that you WANT. But as reality has proven, in most cases, youwill always end up with having the 20% that you WANT and loosing the 80%that you really NEED and that you already had.

Be careful in deciding between what you WANT and NEED in your life.

Adultery happens when you start looking for what you don't have. "Wow, thisgirl in my office is a real looker. But it's not her Wynona Rider featuresthat got me. I'm crazy about her because she's also understanding,intelligent, tender - so many things that my spouse is not"

Somewhere along the way, you'll find a woman or a man who will be morecharming or sensitive. More alluring. More thoughtful. Richer. Have greatersex appeal. And you will find a woman or man who will need you and pursueyou and go loco over you more than your spouse ever did.

Because no wife or husband is perfect. Because a spouse will only have 80%of what you're looking for. So adultery takes place when a husband or wifelooks for the missing 20%. Let's say your wife is melancholic by nature.

You may find yourself drawn to the pretty clerk who has a cherry laugh nomatter what she says: "I broke my arm yesterday, Hahahaha . . .."Or because your wife is a homebody in slippers and pajamas, smelling ofgarlic and fish oil, you may fall for a fresh-smelling young salesrepresentative that visits your office in a sharp black blazer, high heels,and a red pencil-cut skirt Or because your husband is the quiet type, yourheart may skip a beat when you meet an old college flame who has themakings of a talk show host.

But wait! That's only 20% of what you don't have.

Don't throw away the 80% that you already have!

That's not all. Add to your spouse's 80% the 100% that represents all theyears that you have been with each other. The storms you have weatheredtogether. The unforgettable moments of sadness and joy as a couple. Themany adjustments you have made to love the other. The wealth of memoriesthat you've accumulated as lovers.

Adultery happens when you start looking for what you don't have.

But faithfulness happens when you start thanking God for what you alreadyhave.

But I'm not just talking about marriage. I'm talking about life!

About your jobs.
About your friends.
About your children.
About your lifestyles.

Are you like the economy airline passenger that perennially peeks throughthe door of the first class cabin, obsessed with what he's missing? "Theyhave got more leg room! Oh my, their food is served in porcelain! Wow,their seats recline at an 80% angle and they've got personal videos!"

I guarantee you'll be miserable for the entire trip! Don't live your lifelike that. Forget about what the world says is first class. Do you knowthat there are many first class passengers who are miserable in first class-- because they are not riding in a private Lear Jet?

The main message???

If you start appreciating what you have right now, wherever you are, youare first class!

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Mau dia boleh?

Dom Toretto


this is my story III

kehadapan Bintang Jatuh

aku
yang selalu rindu kamu
yang selalu pandang tinggi pada kamu
yang pernah temani kamu di kala perit payah itu
yang sentiasa doakan bahagia kamu
yang masih terngiang2 indahnya bacaan suci dari bibir kamu
yang masih ingat pandangan itu

kamu
yang selalu ada untuk aku
yang tak pernah lokek membahagiakan aku
yang tak pernah lelah mengukir tawa di bibir aku
yang sentiasa ada menjaga aku
yang tetap ada membimbing aku

kita
bukan kata tapi makna
bukan cerita tapi kisah

kamu
yang pernah membisikkan sesuatu pada aku
dan kerana itu aku juga bintang jatuh kamu (",)

...suatu kisah yang bermula dengan a
*wink*

hari ini dalam sejarah

faten : sbb ko SOPAN
faten : ahahahha
faten : sopan dlm erti lembut manes bertudung

Waaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!
ini ialah entry segera.
kejadian berlaku beberapa saat lepas.
wahahahaha...

Thursday, April 16, 2009

R.A.Q = Rarely Asked Questions I

1. masa bgn pagi2, pastu tgk jam, yang biasanya kita pikir masa tu, ada berapa jam (or minit) untuk siap nak pegi keja/kelas atau pasal solat subuh?


2. kalau weekend, selalu org terbabas subuh, sebab dia x keja hari tu, so betul la kan bangun pagi bukan pasal subuh tapi pasal keja?


3. biasanya pukul berapa solat subuh (kalau bangun la)? average 6.30-7.00 kan?


4. biasanya pukul berapa solat zohor? average kol 3.30-4.00 baru terhegeh2 kan?


5. asar plak kol brp? awal la kalo consolidated ngn zohor sblm tu kan? tak pon kol 6.30..maghrib.. isyak pon camtu kan..? biasa la tu.. ok la daripada tak solat langsung kan?


6. kalau kt tempat kerja/belajar dan ada masa flexible, ada ruang utk solat jemaah, ramai yang prefer solat sendiri2 kan? kenapa eh tak join je sekali jemaah tu? lama sgt ke masa yg diambil? patutnya lebih kurang je kan? kadang2 tu dah ada dlm masa,tempat tu dah..tapi tak join gak. eleehh...macam la busy sgt. berborak2 ada plak masa di antara tu.


7. kalo kita lambat dapat sesuatu yg dipohon kira adil la kan? sbb kita pun brtangguh2 utk ibadah kita kpd Allah..


heh..buat panahan untuk diri sendiri.

tapi nasib baik la Allah ni Maha Penyayang.
dalam kelalaian dan kejahilan diri ni, Allah bagi jugak macam2..

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Ketulusan Hati

Sedihku sakitku ku terima
Ku rela ku pasrah jalanku
Ini suratan aku dicoba
Demi rahmat-Mu ku memohon

Yaa Allah ridhoi ketulusan hati
Yaa Allah beri aku ketabahan
Yaa Allah aku sanggup berkorban
Demi rahmat-Mu Yaa Allah

Yaa Allah ridhoi ketulusan hati
Yaa Allah beri aku ketabahan
Yaa Allah aku sanggup berkorban
Demi rahmat-Mu Yaa Allah

by Marshanda - OST Aqso & Madina

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

this is my story II

kehadapan Bintang Jatuh

kasih kamu yang tak pernah luntur,
sayang aku yang tak mungkin terlawan,
aku masih aku,
kamu masih kamu,
kerana itu Kita ada sampai bila-bila

di ketika
tawa tanpa bicara
nangis tanpa kata
diam tanpa suara

tak perlu dikisahkan
tak perlu dikhabarkan
tak perlu diandaikan
hanya perlu hati memahami bahasa itu

kamu
yang diikat itu hati aku
yang disimpul mati itu hati kamu


Sunday, April 12, 2009

It's been a year..

... since the first time i wrote in this blog.


*tepuk2*


Mulakan Lagi

Kau mesti mulakan langkah mujahadah ini sekali lagi. Berbekalkan kata pujangga, kebaikan itu kerapkali perlu dimulakan berkali-kali. Tidak ada istilah putus asa dalam mengharap keampunan dan keredhaan Allah. Walaupun berkali-kali mundur dan terbentur, tetapi itu bukan alasan untuk berhenti. Berhenti ertinya mati - mati hati dalam mengharapkan cahaya Ilahi. Hakikatnya itu lebih bahaya daripada matinya jasad yang lahir ini.



Ya, kau perlu mulakan sekali lagi. Begitu bisikan ilmu menolak rasa ragu. Selalu. Walaupun terasa diri diselubungi selimut dosa dan kemelut alpa, jangan sekali-kali putus asa. Begitu kata jiwa yang menjerit tanpa suara. Allah tidak akan menutup pintu keampunannya… kunci pintu itu adalah harapan. Selagi ada harapan, selagi itulah ada perjuangan. Tewas dalam satu pertempuran tidak bererti tewas dalam satu peperangan. Begitulah jua dalam peperangan melawan syaitan dan hawa nafsu ini.



Tidak ada jalan lain wahai diri, kecuali bangun dan terus bermujahadah. Hati itu boleh berkarat, pencucinya adalah Al Quran dan ingatkan mati. Begitu panduan yang diberikan oleh Rasul junjungan. Jua teringat pesan Imam Ghazali:“Carilah hatimu di tiga tempat… Temui hatimu sewaktu bangun membaca Al Quran. Tetapi jika tidak kau temui, carilah hatimu ketika mengerjakan solat. Jika tidak kau temui juga, kau carilah hatimu ketika duduk tafakkur mengingati mati. Jika kau tidak temui juga, maka berdoalah kepada Allah, pinta hati yang baru kerana hakikatnya pada ketika itu kau tidak mempunyai hati!"



Semak-semak dalam kehidupan harianmu. Bagaimana awal pagimu… Telahkah kau buka setiap hari barumu dengan hati yang bersyukur? Telahkah kau ucapkan, segala puji bagi Allah yang menghidupkan aku daripada kematian yang sebentar dan kepada-Nyalah kami akan dikembalikan? Kemudian mintalah berlindung daripada sifat malas, takut, bakhil dan penguasaan orang lain terhadapmu. Senyum. Dan teruskan bersuci dengan mandi dan wuduk. Basuh wajahmu, fikiranmu, pendenganmu dan penglihatanmu daripada cela dosa dan prasangka. Kemudian dirikan solat Subuh. Pinta hidayah, kesihatan, kekuatan dan kesabaran dalam kalimah-kalimah doa dan munajat itu.



Tidak mengapa sekiranya hati terganggu oleh karenah-karenah manusia atau mainan rasa. Tetapi capai segera Al Quran dan bacalah. Bacalah, itu hakikatnya menjana kekuatan jiwa untuk menghadapi badai kehidupan. Jiwa yang tidak membaca al Quran umpama talipon bimbit yang kehabisan bateri. Betapa canggih fungsinya dan betapa mahal sekalipun harganya, tidak berguna… Begitulah jiwa yang mati, betapa segak, cantik, bertenaga dan anggun sekalipun jasad luaran, tanpa al Quran segalanya tidak berguna.



Jangan mendaki puncak hanya untuk meninggikan tempat jatuh. Jangan memburu fatamorgana kemewahan dunia hanya untuk ditipu olehnya. Ingat wahai diri, janji kesibokan yang tanpa henti, kelesuan yang tiada penghujung, kejemuan yang senentiasa mencengkam, kebimbangan tanpa kesudahan, buat pemburu-pemburu dunia yang bagaikan anjing rakus memburu bangkai. Sebaik-baik bekalan adalah taqwa. Sebaik-baik perlindungan adalah Al Quran. Mereka yang begini sahaja mampu ‘menukar’ bangkai dunia menjadi baja dalam kehidupan.Burulah kehidupan dengan semangat orang yang bersedia untuk mati. Jadilah insan bijaksana yang menghayati pesanan Rasulullah agar sentiasa mengingati mati dan bersedia untuk menghadapinya. Jadilah umpama para sahabat Rasulullah s.a.w yang hidup bahagia, tenang dan aman walaupun dunia ditadbir dan diurus dengan cekap dan berkesan. Jangan jadi Namrud, Firaun dan Haman yang mengurus dunia penuh dengan ketamakan dan kezaliman. Nanti kau diburu oleh resah, gelisah, kesibukan, kejemuan, kemarahan yang tiada berkesudahan.



Ingatlah wahai orang yang bermujadahah… tidak mengapa sekiranya engkau tidak sampai di hujung jalan, cukup sekadar kau telah menempuh jalan. Justeru ketenangan dan kebahagiaan itu bukan hanya ada di hujung jalan, tetapi ada di sepanjang jalan…Genggam al Quran, ingat mati dan berangkatlah. Jalan mujahadah itu susah tapi indah!


genta rasa

Life is good


Saturday, April 11, 2009

* A Story Worth Reading *


Since last night my young son has been unwell. When I got back from work this evening I decided to take him to hospital despite my exhaustion.

There were many waiting; perhaps we will be delayed by more than an hour. I took my number and sat down in the waiting room. There were many faces, young and old, but all silent. Some brothers made use of the many booklets available in the waiting room.

Some of those waiting had their eyes closed, while others were looking around. Most were bored. Once in a while the long silence was broken by a nurse calling out a number. Happiness appears on the one whose turn it is, and he gets up quickly; then silence returns.

A young man grabbed my attention. He was reading a pocket-sized Qur`an continuously; not raising his head even once. At first I did not think much about him. However, after one hour of waiting my casual glances turned into a deep reflection about his lifestyle and how he utilizes his time.

One hour of life wasted! Instead of making benefit of that hour, it was just a boring wait. Then the call for prayer was made. We went to prayer in the hospital's Masjid. I tried to pray close to the man who was reading the Qur'an earlier in the waiting room.

After the prayer I walked with him. I informed him of how impressed I was of him and how he tries to benefit from his time. He told me that most of our time is wasted without any benefit. These are days that go from our lives without being conscious of them or regretting their waste.
He said that he started carrying the pocket-sized Qur`an around when a friend encouraged him
to make full use of his time. He told me that in the time other people waste he gets to read much more of the Qur`an than he gets to read either at home or in the masjid. Moreover, besides the reward of reading the Qur`an, this habit saves him from boredom and stress.

He added that he has now been waiting for one and a half hours. Then he asked, when will you find one and a half hours to read the Qur`an? I reflected; How much time do we waste? How many moments of our lives pass by, and yet we do not account for how they passed by? Indeed, how many months pass by and we do not read the Qur`an? I came to respect my companion, and I discovered that I am to stand for account and that time is not in my hand;
so what am I waiting for?

My thoughts were interrupted by the nurse calling out my number; I went to the doctor. But I want to achieve something now. After I left the hospital I quickly went to the bookshop and bought a pocket-sized Qur`an. I decided to be mindful of how I spend the time.
Our Prophet (S.A.W) said;** 'Whoever guides or directs to good, then he gets the same amount of blessing (reward) as the one who does it'**
**The Prophet (S.A.W) also said** 'Pass on knowledge from me even if it is only one verse'*
soalan: camna kalo masuk toilet dgn ada pocket alquran ni dlm beg?
soalan lagi: xyah berwuduk ke pegang alquran?
hmm...?

Friday, April 10, 2009

get to know

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates. (plenty?? mcm tak je)

Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
thanks to hilmi.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

the pain

i know the feeling, i really do
i know that you're stronger than me,
way too strong
i want to be there
with you

aku nak campak tali tu tarik ko naik
aku nak pegang ko daripada terus jatuh
tapi semua macam aku tak mampu
jangan risau, aku akan duduk sama-sama dengan ko
teman
sampai ko boleh bangun, berdiri dan lari lagi

i might be can do nothing
or maybe i'm just useless
- doing some stupid jokes
damn, it hurt me so much seeing you like this

i hate this
can do nothing

i am always here for you
pray hard for your heart
please Allah help my bestfriend to go through this

pray.
this is the least i can do.

teacher thingy 2

ini bukan budak-budak sekolah, tapi cikgu-cikgu sekolah.
heh.
dalam kelas PJ,
baru buat aktiviti guling2 sampai biol otak. belakang tu lecturer.

dalam kelas muzik, menSUMbangkan lagu dan terhegeh2 buat gerakan.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

this is my story I

ini cerita Bintang Jatuh.

ke hadapan Bintang Jatuh,

yang terlalu terang dan indah..
yang tak pernah hilang dari hati ku..
aku percaya kamu tahu kamu siapa..
dan ini aku khabarkan pada dunia cerita kita..


(",)

Saturday, April 4, 2009

I Have Learned That

I’ve Learned…
That the best classroom in the world is at the feet of an elderly person.

I’ve Learned…
That when you’re in love, it shows.

I’ve Learned…
That just one person saying to me, “You’ve made my day!” makes my day.

I’ve Learned…
That having a child fall asleep in your arms is one of the most peaceful feelings in the world.

I’ve Learned…
That being kind is more important than being right.

I’ve Learned…
That you should never say no to a gift from a child.

I’ve Learned…
That I can always pray for someone when I don’t have the strength to help him in some other way.

I’ve Learned…
That no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to act goofy with.

I’ve Learned…
That sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand.

I’ve Learned…
That simple walks with my father around the block on summer nights when I was a child did wonders for me as an adult.

I’ve Learned…
That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.

I’ve Learned…
That we should be glad God doesn’t give us everything we ask for.

I’ve Learned…
That money doesn’t buy class.

I’ve Learned…
That it’s those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.

I’ve Learned…
That under everyone’s hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.

I’ve Learned…
That the Lord didn’t do it all in one day. What makes me think I can?

I’ve Learned…
That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.

I’ve Learned…
That when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.

I’ve Learned…
That love, not time, heals all wounds.

I’ve Learned…
That the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am.

I’ve Learned…
That everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile.

I’ve Learned…
That there’s nothing sweeter than sleeping with your babies and feeling their breath on your cheeks.

I’ve Learned…
That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

I’ve Learned…
That life is tough, but I’m tougher.

I’ve Learned…
That opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss.

I’ve Learned…
That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.

I’ve Learned…
That I wish I could have told my Mom that I love her, one more time, before she passed away.

I’ve Learned…
That one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them.

I’ve Learned…
That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.

I’ve Learned…
That I can’t choose how I feel, but I can choose what I do about it.

I’ve Learned…
That when your newly born grandchild holds your little finger in his little fist, that you’re hooked for life.

I’ve Learned…
That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you’re climbing it.

I’ve Learned…
That it is best to give advice in only two circumstances; when it is requested and when it is a life-threatening situation.

I’ve Learned…
That the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.

Words by Andy Rooney
http://pravstalk.com/i-have-learned-that/

teacher thingy 1



di suatu pagi yang hening, berlokasi di sekolah rendah, berbaju kebaya cun warna hijau pucuk pisang. seorang kanak-kanak comel berambut pendek berlari-lari arah aku. ku pikirkan kenapa budak ni kelam kabut mendapatkan aku. segala tanda tanya aku berakhir..dia berkata.."kakak!! kakak!! kakak nama apa?" ekekeke..x cukup gaya cikgu ke aku ni. boleh plak panggil aku kakak. then, aku pon bgtau yg aku cikgu. pastu dia mcm kecelaruan fikiran. lalu cuba rephrase balik soalan dia tadi dgn "cikgu kakak nama apa?" time tu aku rasa nk golek2 gelak..tapi kontrol. aku layankan je. tanya aku sekolah mana, keta warna apa. untuk pengetahuan, budak tu darjah dua.

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kids need attention. tu yg pasti.
diorg akan tanya soalan2 yang sungguh mencabar minda.
contohnya;
cikgu, tarikh nak garis tak?
cikgu, nak warna bumbung kaler biru boleh tak?
cikgu, macam ni aa? (selepas satu perkataan ditulis)
cikgu, macam mana nak eja elektrik?

p.s: sib baik tak tanya kt aku nama tempat. kalo tidak, mmg kantoi aa aku tatau.

kalau bila masuk bab mengadu..mengacum.. lagi la. laki ke pompuan sama ja.

ciiikkkgguu.. dia contiang(conteng) tangan saya..
ciikkgguu..dia ambik pemadam saya..
cciikkgguuu.. dia ejek nama ayah saya..
cciikkggguu.. dia x buat kerja..
cciikkguuu.. saya tak reti la nak lukis pokok..cikgu tolong la lukis sat..
(ekeke..mcm cikgu reti lukis..solution: aku suh dia tiru kwn dia..ekekeke)

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situasi: 3 org cikgu tgh jalan bersama2 menuju ke kantin. bertembung dengan murid darjah 6.

"assalakum cikgu..assalakum cikgu..assalakum cikgu.."
ekekeke..seingat aku. aku dulu pon bagi salam byk2 kali kalo ada byk cikgu.
hahaha..tah apa2 kan. bg sekali pon cukup la. dah la salam pon dh tak betul.

on the way balik dari kantin pulak.

murid lain la..
"assalamualaikum cikgu-cikgu!"
eceehh..masa ni kitorg tergelak kt situ gak. sebab macam terpikir.. ni aa cara yang betul.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

picture speak thousands of words

but mengalah tak bererti kalah. ya kan?
how about picture with words?
haa..lagi hebat la kan? hehehe..
pic - courtesy of suerie

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

mereka ini.


mereka ini luar setan. dalam suci. yang selalu buat aku lupa kekejaman manusia.

mereka ini tambahan yang di atas. sayang.

mereka ini ada kisah sahabat. aku ada gambar semua. bangga.

mereka ini kekuatan aku. kenangan indah.

mereka ini semangat aku. hebat. tak sentuh mungkin, jubah biru tanpa mereka.
mereka ini jiwa aku. pegang kuat tali itu, tak pernah lepas. kasih.
mereka ini selalu ada dalam hati aku. melekat sampai mati. rindu.
(azure, ef, dayah, mimi, venesa, ina mana aa masa ni?)
gambar hiasan. hehehe..